Or perhaps not oddness. Now I’ve put all that “out there” and cried even more, I feel better. I wasn’t convinced there was an end to that emotion, but clearly there is.
Now I am feeling slightly more positive about the future. Life is what it is, no point railing against it. Not that hearing that would have helped me an hour ago, but I believe it now.
I feel very lucky to have found Gavin, and to be able to look to the future and see a family unit, and to have his constant support even if I am a looper.
Now if only I could find a way to achieve something so that I don’t feel quite so stuck…