http://www.neverhungryalwayshungry.co.uk Mon, 07 Jun 2010 23:52:12 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en A lady called Eve left me a really inspiring comment on an old post. Some very wise words that have had me thinking today and have given me some ideas on how to move forwards from the negative relationship dynamics I have been part of in the past. This line ... http://www.neverhungryalwayshungry.co.uk/?p=217 One of the things about using this blog for support myself is that I only really post when I'm feeling negative. Tonight is just another lonely, boring night in. I'm missing my sons. I'm still sad that there is no-one to cuddle up to and cross that I'm bothered by ... http://www.neverhungryalwayshungry.co.uk/?p=215 Being a single parent is so lonely sometimes. I am about to go to sleep without saying goodnight to anyone. There's no-one to sleepily chat to about my day as I fall asleep. If my children wake up several times in the night, I won't be able to take it ... http://www.neverhungryalwayshungry.co.uk/?p=213 What a mess. Everything feels like a mess. I have turned into the bitch from hell, I have no idea what I'm doing with my life or what I even want to do with it. I am so angry with everything. I feel so helpless. I don't really enjoy being ... http://www.neverhungryalwayshungry.co.uk/?p=211 I feel dreadful today. Angry, irritated, tired, confused, depressed, trapped. I don't want to do anything, not even move or eat or talk or anything. Argh. This is not me. It is unbearable, and yet there is no escaping it. Everything just feels awkward and wrong :-( http://www.neverhungryalwayshungry.co.uk/?p=208 Or perhaps not oddness. Now I've put all that "out there" and cried even more, I feel better. I wasn't convinced there was an end to that emotion, but clearly there is. Now I am feeling slightly more positive about the future. Life is what it is, no point railing ... http://www.neverhungryalwayshungry.co.uk/?p=206 Rediscovered Hide and Seek by Imogen Heap this morning and have analysed the lyrics to death. I hate being depressed without knowing why. Usually there is a trigger but this time there hasn't been anything suddenly bad. It's slowly got worse since my team leader at work got fired so ... http://www.neverhungryalwayshungry.co.uk/?p=204 I've been thinking about going on the Women in Power workshop next year. I know it's really expensive, but it looks fascinating. I was just reading their website and read this and thought, that makes so much sense. When we stay loyal to our solemn promises never to be like the ... http://www.neverhungryalwayshungry.co.uk/?p=201 Happy:  I am happy because I keep getting little moments of realising that he loves me. And because we have his daughter back this weekend. And because my car is fixed. And because I spoke to my sister and she made me feel better about worrying. And because I bought ... http://www.neverhungryalwayshungry.co.uk/?p=199 Usually when I get all wound up in the evenings, by the morning it has gone. It started on Wednesday night and the fear is still here. It was triggered by him talking to his ex-girlfriend. I am convinced he's going to leave, but after talking to Kate (my therapist), ... http://www.neverhungryalwayshungry.co.uk/?p=197